I have avoided posting for over a week since the tone would have been too depressing. My first weekend alone was nothing special. I actually stayed in my pajamas all day that Saturday - I know, it was bad.

I'm hoping that my husband will get a job working every other weekend so that he won't be able to get our son every weekend. Don't judge me, I work all week and the weekends are when my son and I get to relax and go at a slower pace.

Really, I'd love it if my husband found any job. He quit his job a month ago and for some reason I've been paying ALL the bills and still supporting him. Something is wrong with this picture! It didn't grate on my nerves so bad until I saw where he was repeatedly going to a nearby town which just happens to be where an ex-coworker of his lives. Probably still wouldn't have mattered except for the fact that they exchanged love letters by email. Yes, I stooped to the level of checking his email. He swears they're "just friends" since he doesn't know I saw the emails. No wonder he was always jealous and checking my cell phone... he was worried that I was doing whatever he was.